19weeks: Sometimes your mind just drives you nuts!

This week is a bad week for the SMH forum sisters.  One of us had a miscarriage suddenly, without any warning or symptoms.  It was really heartbreaking to read her posts and it really saddened beanie and I.  Her words kept appearing in my mind and my heart just goes out to her and what she is going through.  Her pain must be immeasurable and I just keep praying that she would be back on her feet really soon.  Really hope that no more IVF mommies would have to lose our beanies. 

Another sister is going through an uncertain and frustrating phrase, trying to make sense of what had happened at her detailed scan.  Just when we all feel more confident at mid 2nd-trimester, reality hits us hard and tells us that we should constantly be careful and thankful.  Life is so uncertain and fragile and sometimes we are just so helpless in our circumstances.  At this point, we can only pray and put our faith in God's plans for us.

I just keep telling myself that whatever will be will be.  If a miscarriage is really just round the corner, there is nothing the doctors can do or help.   I will just try to enjoy the pregnancy, pray real hard for the days ahead and not get too caught up in my paranoia.  Well, 2 more milestones to cross - detailed scan in mid Jul and the passing of week 24 in early Aug.  Week 24 is also known as viability week where the doctors are able to save the foetus in event of any pregnancy complication.