Give Thanks! No-pay leave likely approved!

I have been very troubled on how to broach my request for no-pay leave again.  I did bring up this casually when my boss was discussing the offer for me to move to a new department as part of the upcoming merging/restructuring in my organisation.  The general flow then was that I should be able to manage that portfolio while trying IVF.  

In the next few weeks, I did seriously consider if I could balance both work and IVF but my body was telling me otherwise.  Over the long National Day holidays, I left my laptop in the office and my pulse improved.  Last week, I took a couple of days leave for a short weekend getaway and my TCM doc said my pulse was actually gaining power. I have been seeing her for over a year and this is the first time she said my pulse had power.

I did wish that I could be there to give my 120% at the new portfolio but I know that would mean I would eventually and inevitably delay my IVF plans further. Yet I felt guilty that I am leaving such a great team behind, especially in such uncertain times of need. 

I prayed again and again, but I just didn't have the courage to talk to my boss.  There were so many times when I was loitering outside the door but just couldn't bring myself to step in.  There was once I finally knocked, but my boss was too busy to see me.  Sometimes I even wish that maybe I would conceive naturally during this period and I would not need to bring up the topic.

But God answers prayers in the most miraculous manner.  My boss proactively SMS-ed me one day that we should talk about my no-pay leave.  I gave it a wild try and asked for half year no-pay, knowing the full risks that I would have to accept whatever vacancies available at the point of my return.  It was unexpected but I received full support and understanding from my boss.  Best news ever!  I really hope that this period of rest would really help to heal my body and boost the chances of my IVF.  

For now til then, I will be giving my 200% at work to return the kindness and support from my boss and organisation.