That is what my hubby calls me now - a potato. Because I am an official licensed couch potato. After all the bleeding scares last week, I am a very obedient potato. I no longer crave to go out. I no longer feel inadequate or miserable because I am all cooped up in bed.
In fact, I am learning to be thankful for simple things. If I am nausea, I am thankful that beanie is growing. If I am not nausea, I am even more thankful that I get to enjoy a good moment (while it lasts). My happiest moment is when I visit the toilet and there are no surprises.
First trimester is really not an easy journey. Physically there are a lot of side effects. Emotionally, you can get all crazy. Mentally, it is torturing because you fear for the well-being of the beanie. Sometimes, I will wonder what did I get myself into. If you think the IVF jabs were bad, wait til you reach ER, ET and OHSS. If you think OHSS was bad, wait til you are in the 2ww which will drive you nuts. If you think 2ww was bad, wait til you reach first trimester. It is 6 times as long, with no less of the emotional and physical craziness. And the first trimester seems to be even more fragile for IVF mommies-to-be.
But a simple news will make it all worth while. My TCM doc says the beanie pulse is ok, stronger than the week before. And that's all it matters. The little tortoise (as my TCM doc describes beanie) is still hard at work, growing with all its might. Next week, we will get to see you again at the gynae. Hopefully, we will be able to make out more of you and how you look like. In the meantime, grow beanie grow =)
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