Friday, 7 March 2014

9dp2dt: Happy Friday!

One more week to the blood test! Re-reading my old posts made me realised that I am in a better state now, both physically and mentally.  Having sat on the IVF roller-coaster before makes you more aware of the twists and turns.  In fact, it gives you a second chance to enjoy the ride a little more, feel the breeze through your hair before the ride comes to a gentle halt.

Emotionally, it is less volatile this time.  Yes, I still had a meltdown yesterday.  I was lounging on the bed (after enjoying my mom's home-cooked lunch) with music playing in the background as I type away on my laptop.  Honestly, it was pure joy and relaxation.  And there it was.  Because I was feeling so blessed, I suddenly felt a huge fear that this blessing would be taken away.  The thoughts spiralled so fast that I was just bawling and shaking uncontrollably on the bed.  And suddenly I hear my favourite chorus play and the world stopped spinning.  The lyrics goes:

I know who goes before me
I know who stands behind
The God of angel armies is always by my side
The one who reigns forever
He is a friend of mine
The God of angel armies is always by my side

All is fine now.  I have returned to my la-la land.  As the lyric says it all, there is nothing to fear.  If it doesn't work out, we will just try again.  In worse case, there is nothing bad being just 2 of us.  But of course I am still greedy, praying for that twin pregnancy or even the rare triplets pregnancy to happen.  Well, God is generous so why not just ask?  And I wanna share this link of this very good article that will help calm your mind =) http://www.trulymind.com/8-things-to-remember-when-everything-goes-wrong/

So Happy Friday everyone!
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12 comments:

  1. Faithfully Yours7 March 2014 at 16:25

    Hey dear,
    I chanced upon your blog on the forum and decided to say hi to you! I'm not active in the forum. We are actually cycle buddies on long protocol but different drugs used. I had my ER on 25 Feb and ET on 27 Feb. Anyway nice reading your blog! :)

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  2. Faithfully Yours7 March 2014 at 16:26

    Oh and we are same age too! I'm 34 this year. :)

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  3. Circles7 March 2014 at 16:33

    *waves* always so nice to meet new friends! Good luck for your BT! One more week to go!

    And yeah, we are the same age. Time just flies! I always still feel I am in the early 30s. But the mid- 30s is just round the corner for us. Hahaha!

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  4. Faithfully Yours7 March 2014 at 17:47

    All the best to you too! :) this is my first fresh cycle and is a long awaited one as my case is a very unique one. The truth was brutally cruel when we found out our infertility issue. I'm perfectly normal and healthy while DH was diagnosed to be azoospermia. We can never have our own biological children. So we are using donor.

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  5. Circles7 March 2014 at 18:17

    Thanks for sharing. I wish you many many succes. All children are gifts to us. Doesnt matter if it is donor. if it is meant for us, it will come :)

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  6. Faithfully Yours7 March 2014 at 18:41

    Thank you! :)
    God has been very kind to me in this journey. :) no side effect from all the injections, a breeze for me during ER and ET, no OHSS, even now I'm feeling very normal in this 2ww. I don't know if it's a good thing or not coz I don't even feel any symptom as described by others in the forum. I can only leave everything in God's plan and His time for me. Hope it's the same for you too! Trust in the Lord! God is with us! Be not afraid! Everything is possible with God! Amen! :)

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  7. lunayue7 March 2014 at 22:13

    Hi Circles, I am also in my 2ww, half way to it. Pregnyl support. Bloated tummy from the start and it was still manageable at the beginning but yesterday it got a turn for the worse. Breathless, can't find comfort in whatever position, be it stand, lie down, sit or walk. I am feeling so miserable. Shouldn't it get better as the day goes by? Tomorrow is another round of pregnyl jab. I can't imagine :(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

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    1. Circles10 March 2014 at 16:10

      lunayue, is your bloating better already?

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    2. lunayue21 March 2014 at 11:45

      Thanks so much, circles. M glad that I actually heed your advice to go to the O&G.

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  8. Circles8 March 2014 at 14:32

    Hi lunayue, nice to meet u too! For me, my ohss symptoms are bad in the beginning. I heard successful implantation can worsen ohss because of the presence of hcg.

    Continue your isotonic intake. if it gets so bad, go to the clinic. My bloating was real bad on 4dp2dt. Blood test showed no more ohss. I was given antacic to help with the bloating.

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  9. asecondchance9 March 2014 at 14:48

    Is normal to breakdown sometimes as we are in an emotional state. Just have to stay positive n strong whatever the outcome.

    Faithfully yours, I have friends succeed using donor sperm so u have a fair chance too. I believe we can give love to our children be it biological or not.

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  10. Unknown9 March 2014 at 21:04

    To all the ladies here, we will all gain with a little bit more pain!!

    jiayou!

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