Summary of symptoms: 0dp3dt to 7dp3dt

It has been quite an eye-opening experience for me since Egg Transfer.  I suffered quite majorly because of the OHSS symptoms.  At that point, I could only think of trying to get myself better.  I didn't even dare to think of BFP as it would worsen my symptoms.

Luckily, the OHSS subsided with the help of my chinese medicine, immunocal and lots of prayers.  Then the guilt started to kick in.  I felt like a very selfish person who could only think about myself.  I even thought that as long as I felt better, that was all that matters.  I told everyone that this was my first and last IVF, no matter what the outcome was.

As I got better, paranoia visited me.  Like many of the sisters doing IVF, I started to read into the symptoms.  But I realise it just doesn't mean anything.  I am a natural pessimist.  If there are no signs, I would be thinking that implantation failed.  If I have cramps, I would be thinking that my period is coming.  Honestly, there is no basis for such thoughts.  Refusing to let these thoughts rule my life, I started to go out to distract myself.  These thoughts will still creep up on me, especially when I am alone or in the night.  I will try my best to shake them off - sing a song or say a prayer - whatever that works.

I will remain hopeful and I know I will have the strength to handle the outcome.  Because I am not alone.

In any case, part of me still wants to document down my journey and the symptoms.  Here's a table summarising the symptoms in the last 7 days.